How Do I Live Without It?
Lonely and misunderstood
Trapped in a prison created by self
Enslaved by my mind
Unable--afraid--to reach out of this hell
This is to punish myself to comfort myself
To destroy what is left of myself
Don't help me; you can't love me
I'm not worthy of living.
The only way I know to exist is to purposely fade out of existence.
Safe inside my iron world.
Flesh is weakness, emptiness is power, control
If I don't need you you can't hurt me
But this hole that is within me hurts.
This disease consumes me but it's all I have
How do I live without it?
Authored by a now Recover(ed) Susan Landry, age 20